Its been a bit scary and even painful to feel on this planet in previous times, with so much harshness, pretence and struggle.
The majority of humanity generally learnt as children to embrace the intellectual way of orientating to life, to oneself. We basically had to figure out and were educated on how to operate in this reality....what to say, what not to say, how to act, how not to act, often at the cost over our life span of our inner true authentic expression in the moment, of sharing our voice, our creativity and natural abundant flow. These natural expressions instead got stuffed down or made wrong or inappropriate. So by age 5-7yrs +/_ we had moulded ourselves into what was expected of us for fear of getting in trouble.
The other part of this is the dropping of the veils, where the amnesia or forgetfulness came in and we really forgot our connection to our soul self. The imaginary friends began to go away and the education of good conduct and mannerism took over. It was important to learn how to survive, get love and food, no matter how conditional it may have been.
Now it is time to let all the inner monsters out and realise they are not so scary , only when caged away in shame, guilt and fear (false expectations appearing real).
Write it down, paint it, scream it out, dance it, share with really good listeners / not the sympathic ones (sympathy locks in the perception of victim mentally), find an empowering listening, it just about the energy/expression flowing out of you. Sympathy would contain it and fix it into a story of contraction.
Do what ever it takes. Find a way to share your repressed or suppressed expression, get it out of your system so it does not eat away at your system and cause imbalance as illness physically, mentally and emotional. Your expression is your creative flow of energy , it is most healthy when its a moving and a grooving. That is why exercise is so important because it gets the energy moving. We then feel more relaxed and clearer in ourself. Energy like to move..!!!!! It is the nature of energy to move...and being in nature reminds our bodies of that and invites us to get into this more naturally rhythms of flow and allowing. Instead of the learnt control mechanism we created to stay safe in the world and often times small and mundane.
Humanity is so much more ....than they think. We are just beginning to awaken from the dream of separation, isolation, limitations and lack consciousness perceived predominately via our left brain translations of one self and a closing down of the heart centre partial if not all.
Part of this awakening is releasing everything we are not and that requires releasing the held back expressions mixed up in a negative or limiting perception. As we chip away the outer protective shells we have build around us called EGOIC PERSONAS in the image of what we thought our family and the world expected of us to be a good girl/boy/successful human/mother/wife/husband/other or simply to be safe and secure here on planet earth. We discover the shining bright diamond within that has been waiting our return, we re-discover that we each are a luminous BEing with a divine nature with purity of unconditional love and light. That is our eternal nature and our earth experience is but a blink of a eye in terms of whom and what we truly are as soul ~ spirit ~ energy beings united through the unified field of all that is GOD, NATURE, SOURCE.
Embrace your freedom to BE YOU moment to moment. My realisation that I really was not free within myself was when I was about 16yr or 17 yrs and I watch a friend of mine go from the raw emotion of tears and then into laughter once they were complete. I realised in that moment that I did not have access to that kind of authentic expression in the moment, that kind of freedom to express what ever I was feeling and to know that was safe and ok to do so. I had so many restrictions on my emotions and usually stuffed them down. I actually felt at that time that if I let the top off of my emotion's, I may well have exploded as I had been containing them for so long in the image of appearing strong and protecting myself from any further pain or rejection.
That moment planted the seed of desire in me to find my way home to that innate freedom. It has been a journey of much learning, understandings, healing, empowerment and wisdom...and here I AM in joyous service. I'm sure I will continue to explore greater freedom within myself and share that freedom of expression and creativity with the world all in divine timing/alignment. Feels like fun and filled with exciting adventures yet to unfold revealing even more of the magic and grace of divinity.
ALL THAT IS 'I AM' you are. & so it is.