I have been sensing a time in the future NOW for sometime where we look back at our old life experience like a dream fading away and be bemused that we use to think ourselves as unworthy, undeserving, limited and lacking in any way seeking some imagined perfection way outside somewhere in the unattainable mystery lands of never quite getting their in this lifetime or the next or the next ...many would call this the wheel of Karma..!!! No more hamster wheel days people ..YIPPEE : ) Been there, worn the t-shirt, squeezed all the remaining juiciness out of it until we got so board and tired of feeling like a piece of crap always in second place, missing out on the real prize that we surrendered and gave up the fight, the seeking, the yearning and finally had no place to go but to go within...!!!
All those wonderful Master Legends kept telling us "look within" and "you are the answer you have been waiting for" and "everything I can do, you can do and more" we went blab blab blab nice idea, but we were not ready to accept this then. Instead we were seduced time and time again to give our power away and play games to try to manipulate this outer reality and boost our egos sense of self worth. So what was that all about? Why did we do that? Why were we so willing to ? Its fascinating stuff and yet that has been our journey of exploring the adventure of believing oneself separate from thee source of all power, love and absolute security which only asked for our trust, faith and accepting oneself as already perfect and having it all within.
I actually do get why we jumped in eagerly to the game of separation and immense contrast of experience. Its just brilliances when we step back from it all and see the bigger picture of the crazy roller coaster ride it offered through our human self/persona in all it diversity, intensity and some times absolute horror and overwhelm.
From the perspective or expanded vibrational frequencies ranges of greater being / source creator these human experiences have just been opportunities to know life in all its tantalising flavors, colours, variety, range of frequencies, facets and focal point of manifested reality.
From our human personality level living the reality of duality and been driven by a ego feeling isolated and disconnected the experience took many a nose dive into the deepest despair, dis-empowerrment, manipulation, judgement, competition, comparison, fragmentations and power-over. Of course there has been immense highs, laughter, singing, dancing, drumming, nature, family and community.
For most however in the old paradigms, life became a hard slog and the highs became the minority of experience. Actually to my awareness the hard slog became more valuable as it somehow set the standard of a sense of purpose and value that would eventually lead to a moment of relief and joyous remembering that it would all work out and was worth it for a moments peace.
Now I'm speaking to you from my own human journey discoveries and that was through a girl brought up in a catholic family in a culture that has a deep underlined belief in oneself as not good enough and a victim of outer circumstance, so Im not saying this has been true for all for I know there has been some that lived steadfast in there own universe of creation and inner connection through all of this while the rest of us got sucked into the intense game in action happening on the field of illusion. However I am understanding this as a minority and the masses would more relate to my tale of reflexion of the human exploration in the old paradigms of dis-connected knowing of oneself.
From the expanded inter-connected reality of awakened re-memberance from where I now live more and more sustainable every day. I reflect with awe my master plan to delve deep into the old disconnected paradigm of human experience and to feel the pain and suffering of that reality. To know the struggle and sadness, the confusion and those moments of relief from it all which for the irish culture and many other cultures involved some kind of alcohol or some other form of getting high to allow the ego to rest and surrender its fight for survival and to be right (while deeply believing its wrongness or unworthiness, why else would it fight so dame hard to prove its rightness ? ? ?).
Thank god for the alcohol & drugs I say ...
Drugs and alcohol are for many people what has offered a reprieve from the harshness of old reality that was being felt, misunderstood and utterly confusing for the most part if one really thought about it all which would challenge identify and for most a no go zone. I acknowledge that alcohol and drugs helped me many times in the earlier years of experimentation to come out of my egoic shy and confused shell, only to retrieve back in the next day with some kind of hangover or even just simple fatigue from all that letting my hair down so to speak....!!! : )
I chose my life journey very well indeed so I could be here with you now in this new energy, new era of limitless possibilities with the deepest compassion and authentic understanding of our collective human journey. I have travelled the path perhaps just like you from the depth of disconnected dis-empowered reality and somehow by following my inner impulse to find my way home my caterpillar emerged as a beautiful butterfly. A butterfly that remembers and eventually accepted its creational power through love to create worlds. A butterfly that remembers its all about me because I am the universe in person.
This outer reality is but a beautiful playground of experience and signals to consistently clarify my creations within. I joyously take full responsibility for my energy. If something on the outer world triggers me in any way I use it to support and inform my new version creation of my reality. I know my most important question and job today is how much can I love and show up for myself today, listen and hear myself honestly / honourable and BE the powerful joyous creator I came here to be. I know what Gandi meant when he said "Be the change you want to see in the world" We are each that powerful a creator within. Its time to stop looking outside for the answer or something or someone to blame. That game is getting very dull at this stage of our enlightened reality.
LOVE is the power. Not the human love of conditions in a polarised world but a LOVE that is the spirit and power that knows all in its perfection on every vibrational frequency and dimension of expression, that has a innocence and organic nature to just BE and know absolutely and eternally that all is well, always has been and always will be. Love is the dance of new creation emanating, pulsing and radiating our through us now if we allow and surrender into this wondrous dance of divine orchestration.
Please don't belief anything I have written here or feel you need to make it right or wrong. Only take away that which lightens your heart, calms and sooth your mental mind and ego while giving you a permission slip to know and accept its all ok, your ok. Be open to allowing a smile creep up on your face as you ponder that it may well be the most humorous ridiculous cosmic joke there is, as we learn to laugh with ourselves and then each other. Allow your feeling body to be your guiding light of your own truths..not mine and not someone else's. I share my stories, insights, reflections, perceptions, musing and enlightened a-ha's to spark in you your own remembrance to your own truth and limitless power within.
Namaste enlightened one : )